It's official now. Year 2 has ended.

Whew~ (not too sure if this is a sigh of relief or emo)

Feels like I just entered uni not long ago and now I'm already halfway through. It's really scary cos it seems like I have not really learned anything substantial which will help me in advancing my study/career. As though my slate gets wiped clean after each semester. As though I am too stupid to retain any infomation/knowledge. T____T

This semester, like any other, is quite a disappointing one academically wise. Same old same old. Haih. You think I myself am not sien meh? I have thought that I could for once get some A's for my core subjects besides Engineering Maths and I was in fact quite pleased with my carry marks but after sitting for my finals I would be very lucky if I even manage to get a B. SIGH. Am pissed with myself cos I know that I could have certainly done better, much better, if not for the lazy bug Y___Y

No point crying over spilled milk. What that has been done has already been done. Lets just learn from this and move forward (obviously trying to pacify myself wtf).

On a brighter note, the HOLIDAY is here! Going to Singapore, JB, KL and Penang if all goes according to plan =) Actually there isn't exactly a plan yet but I do wanna go to these places. Hehe. Talk about wanting to stay home longer, eh. But I really do!! I'm forfeiting my second Singapore trip okay even though it's gonna be more fun cos my mom and bro are going also so this means that we get to go eat more yummy food since the mother-in-law-to-be is there ;p And I think there will be even better sales then. The things I do for time with family and friends wtf.

Okay, things to accomplish this break:

Taiping (home)

• Hawker food!!
  
• Bring Ginny to the vet.
• Accompany Ah Ma (and also Ah Kong, to be fair LOL) more.
• Hang out with friends more.
• Bring Boy out for at least one movie.
• Hiking everyday (!!!)
• Watch a lot of tv wtf
• Cook/bake (!!!)
• Get a trim

Singapore

• Shopping! Need to get at least one nice dress for Kenneth's wedding and perhaps another for Tua Chi's. Ooh and I can finally put my Charles and Keith Birthday benifits to good use! Hehe ;p
  
• Eat: Sakae Sushi, Crystal Jade, Hard Rock Cafe, any kind of buffet, chicken rice, Burger King, Carl's Jr, Subway and lotsa knick knacks in Taka basement.
• Sweettalk!!! Why la Malaysia don't have this??!!
  

KL

• Bangsar with Lydia. Been wanting to go to their flea market for the llloooonnnggeessttt time. Hehe.
• Clubbing maybe?

Penang

• Hawker food!!!
• Go to the pasar malam which Mandy always go to get her pirated DVDs =D
• Visit Queensbay Mall's Forever 21! Which is so much nicely done than Sg's. Not sure bout their collections though.

JB

• Spend time with lai ma and family. Haven't seen them for close to a year. How time flies! Sad that I didn't manage to say goodbye to Kranji War Memorial cos the last time I went to Sg, as fate would have it, something happened so I couldn't go stay with them. And now lai ma papa has retired and gone back to JB. As weird as this may sound, I actually miss staying at Kranji. Got the dead bodies okay. Even the ex-President's! Whenever I go stay with them I always follow them for breakfast everyday. It's always either Lor Mee/Prawn Mee at Woodlands Point, Keh Leng Na Mee (mee rebus) at Marsiling or Curry Mee at some HDB area. Khatib or something, I can't remember. And then it'll be tv the whole day but sometimes we do go out. Usually to Bugis, Tekka or Chinatown area. They still dunno how to go to Orchard Road even after staying at Sg for so long! And Orchard Road's like my territory la. LOL. Life in the memorial is quite monotonous and can get pretty boring if I may add so what lai ma papa does not everyone is up for it. He's the manager/caretaker btw.

Okay, that pretty much sums up my plans for this holiday. If you'd notice it's always about food, food and more FOOD. I just love to eat I can't help it. They say, 'eat to live, not live to eat', but I say 'BOTH!!!' Hehe =D

Sometimes I feel like kicking myself hard...really hard in my ass. YES, my own big but supple ass, if I may say so. LOL.

;(((

What the hell is wrong with me man?! I'm just very not myself lately. For how long I do not know. Heck, I don't even dare to think about it.

Where oh where art thou my lovely spirit?
For it's been so long since you're gone
That I'm is beginning to feel foreign
Are you lost and cannot find your way back?
Then I'll pray that the stars will never dim
To light your path back to this lonely heart
Come back, make haste, and claim your rightful place.
I have been missing you for too long.

I hate:

1. Being sweaty. I'm the typical big sweaty unglam kinda girl cos I sweat real easily even with the slightest heat. Why do I have such active sweat glands? Why oh why??!! >.<||
   
2. How I am always so lazy to study when I know that I could easily achieve good results if only I put in the extra effort. I can't remember when was the last time I really studied. Sei mou.
3. How I am such a glutton. That's why I can never ever be slim. The thinnest I can ever get is when I can fit into size 12 clothes *embarrassed
4. Making small talks. Cos it's like you're forced to have conversation and most of the time people are insincere when they do that. And I always feel awkward. Is it just me? LOL
5. Latecomers (and also waiting). Time is GOLD. Enough said.

I love:

1. Food (refer to #3 above). Seriously, food will be the death of me =.=
2. Fashion. I like dressing up and looking pretty. Now, thin doesn't necessarily equals beautiful, yes? If I have 1 million dollars I'd go crazy in Topshop, Miss Selfridge, Zara and Mango =D
   
3. Travelling. I like going to new places and explore what they have to offer. If all goes well I'll be going backpacking after graduation. Who wants to join me? ;p
4. The beach. Especially taking long walks with my love under the bright shining full moon and star-lit sky. Ooh and also watching the sun sets! Very idealistic I know. Hehe.
5. Animals. I used to once want to be the next Steve Irwin (RIP) and Jane Goodall. These people are so inspiring. Don't support the fur and exotic animal trade k?
   

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Guess what??!! I finally know how to link websites! Woots aren't I brilliant? Hehe. So here are the 2 websites which I tried (but failed) to linklast time: The guessing game and the newsread.

My second year's ending in a week's time. And I feel like I have not learned much that will actually help me in advancing my career/study. This is where the Malaysian education fails. Or perhaps it'll be more apt to say that I failed (-.-") since I have not shown much interest and rather the lack of capability to be honest. Bah!

I was really annoyed at pretty lotsa people these few days. Should be the imbalance hormone's working cos my period's overdue. And also the stress of not being well prepared for my exams. Two papers down and two more to go. Yay! I'm already lining up my plans for this coming long break but this time I try to stay put at home as long as possible. I wanna spend as much time with Ginny as possible cos old age is catching up with her. Just the other day I saw on PostSecret a picture of a dog with the caption: 'I hope that I can come home from college in time to give you the life you deserved. I'm afraid of losing you to old age.' I can so relate to that post but dang I forgot to save it >.< Really cannot bear the thought of going home to a house without my Ginny ;(

I look crap I know so stop bitching already. Haha.

And I miss Ah Ma too ;(

Blur looking Ah Kong and cute Ah Ma <3

I used to go over to her place every weekend. How funny it is when I was younger I hated her cooking but as I grow older I just can't get enough of them! She whips up the most delicious chinese dishes. Simple but a luxury to the tastebuds indeed. I love those Saturday afternoons where she would accompany me watch my favourite cooking shows on Discovery Travel & Living channel, and then it's Ballroom Bootcamp at 4. She doesn't understand English much but still she's always fascinated with those ang moh langs and their fancy, quirky ways. She loves their 'kin siu' (animals in Hokkien) as well on Animal Planet. Hehe. But now that I'm away from home, even when I do go home, I rarely go visit her cos there's always so many things to do yet so little time. Excuses, excuses. I'm cucu derhaka ;((

Okay I think I've digressed too much on what this whole post is suppose to be about. Typical me. Anywayyy I do not know if I should be angry/happy/relieved/annoyed when I sat for my Electrical Machine & Power System paper today. Cos bladdy hell almost all the questions are exactly like the ones we had in our tests. Even if they're not 100% alike it's so similar you just can't not know how to do. Like this why even make us sit for the exam? So stupid right? When my friend told me that the other section's lecturer ask to look back all the test papers I wasn't expecting anything like this at all! Shit! And the worst thing is that I still do not know how to do some of them ;((( *slaps self* It was practically a free A and yet....sigh.

And then about Numerical Methods & Statistics! Walau eh, now this one I'm really pissed. Cos some of the questions are exactly like the ones in the other section's lecturer's notes! It's so unfair....shouldn't it be like all for one and one for all?

Can someone please tell me why am I still here? Now I feel like I AM wasting precious time. I dream of being in a place where my senses are always being teased, to be driven. Somewhere where injustice is condemned kau kau. And everyone is given what they deserve, what they've earned. I am still waiting for that day to come.

My second year's ending in a week's time. And I feel like I have not learned much that will actually help me in advancing my career/study

I found this link on fourfeetnine's blog and it's really funny in a kinda creepy way. LOL.
http://en.akinator.com/<----- copy paste this on your address browser! Gosh I think I should really learn how to link a website sia >.<

Anywayyy still no water! WTF man! I'm getting my period soon and I really really REALLY hope that the water supply will be back by then. Hmph!

This season of 'drought' we can really see some people's true color man. So disgusting and annoying I wanna barf! Seriously, compromise la since water is so scarce that we can't even afford to even pangsai in our own common toilet how pathetic is that. Poor Sew had to go all the way to the clinic yesterday and today she drove all the way to the toll just to shit. Now that's what I call innovation in desparation WTF. Doesn't really sound right but it sure sounds good. Haha!

First day we went to the toll to bathe and yesterday and today we went to Petronas. I bet the mak cik cleaner loathes us UMPians now cos we're adding up to their water bill. Hehe. Met quite a number of fellow troopers there too so no surprise for the mak cik cleaner's dark scowls. =.=||
So angry at my bowel system cos when I can't take a dump I FEEL like I gotta do it there and then but when there's a proper toilet (toilets with WATER) it just doesn't want to come out. WTF. No inspiration at all that I have to force and kek it out (read: pre-labour exercise). Haih.

Why oh why?!

This is an entry of an angsty, water deficit girl:

I feel like pang sai-ing. But I can’t. Cos there has been no water supply since Wednesday and I need to be thrifty with how I use it. *cry

DAMN YOU UMP!!!

This is the umpteenth time that our water supply is disrupted.

SCREW YOU!!!

Best water appreciation lesson, eh?

BUT I DON’T CARE GIMME MY WATER NOW!!!

T____T

It seriously sucks to not have water for so many days. Dah lah the weather so freaking hot that I'm constantly feeling sticky and sweaty but cannot bathe cos need to save water. And my exam is in few days time. Like I (we) need an extra matter to stress over -.-"

SUCK BALLS!!! GRR~

It’s 4 am now and there’s is no hint of sleepiness in me. Yet. This is one of the reasons why I usually hate study week cos my biological clock is always screwed up around this time.


So lately I’ve been reading a lot of Su Ann’s blog. Of course, I do not know her personally or anything. I'm NOT a stalker k. Just happen to like her flair of writing. She’s just another blogger I sort of discovered but actually she’s been famous for a while. Just that I never get around to reading her blog. Speaking of which, I really hate this habit of mine: blog hopping. First, it wastes time. Secondly, it just makes me more depressed at my own already depressed enough life whenever I read of how fabulous theirs are T____T


Anywayyy back to what I was saying, it’s really amazing how she sounds so much mature than me although I’m technically older than her (1 year!). If I were to compare us both I feel like I've been living under the tempurung for too long. I've been in my comfort zone too much. There are so many things to explore. So many new experiences to savour. And yet, here I am, little small me (figuratively speaking of course!), hidden amongst the thousands of students in UMP with little or perhaps almost close to none of moments that took my breath away. Moments valuable and moments which help shape me into what and who I am.


This brings me to the whole point of this post. I feel like up till now, 21 years 11 months 10 days of my life, I haven't really found myself, who I really am. I feel like I am a few steps backwards in normal human physiological and emotional growth cos when usually normal people would have passed this stage in their adolescence years I am now only beginning to embark on this whole new period of my life. So who I really am? What is my purpose here?


I really don't want to just let life pass me by like that. I want to capture it and live every day like it's my last. But I still have a long to go to really be able to appreciate it =( What have I learned so far? Where do I see myself in the future, say in 5 years' time? It's really frustrating to not have found your footing. Yesterday, I was very very down and was emoing away, as I typed a whole long post only to decide that I don't want/should not post it. Cos I was afraid. Afraid to show myself bare of what I'm truly feeling. Afraid to find out what people will say. But this ain't really a problem since there's zero existance in this blog...by choice. Another result of my fear. I can't believe I am even ashamed to let my friends see what I'm struggling with. Maybe it's because I'm ashamed at my state as I am now not what people have expected me to be? Why is my star getting more and more bleak?


Oh gosh, seriously, like I need more of this when I am suppose to be drowning myself in books -.-'


I just wish that one day I could wake up happy and cheery and able to say confidently that I am me. I am Jessy. Nothing more and nothing short. Please come soon!!!

It’s 4 am now and there’s is no hint of sleepiness in me. Yet. This is one of the reasons why I usually hate study week cos my biological clock is always screwed up around this time.

So lately I’ve been reading a lot of Su Ann’s blog. Of course, I do not know her personally or anything. She’s just another blogger I sort of discovered but actually she’s been famous for a while. Just that I never get around to reading her blog. Speaking of which, I really hate this habit of mine: blog hopping. First, it wastes time. Secondly, it just makes me more depressed at my own already depressed enough life whenever I read of how fabulous theirs are T____T

Anywayyy back to what I was saying, it’s really amazing how she sounds so much mature than me although I’m technically older than her (1 year!). If I were to compare us both I feel like I've been living under the tempurung for too long.

Hey there.

It's me.....again.

I just read pinkpau and sweatlee's blogs, and they really got me thinking. How life is so unfair. How you've got no one to blame but yourselves when things don't turn out the way you've hoped it would. How sometimes destiny is kinda in your own hands. I know I did say once in my earlier post that God has amazing plans for our lives, each and every one of us. That we should not doubt Him cos after all just like how far/high heaven is from earth, so are His ways than our ways. But sometimes (okay maybe more than SOMEtimes) I wish so much that circumstances favour me. It's the selfish in me talking, please forgive me. Humans are like that, I suppose. They're never contented with what they have...until it's gone. But then again, selfishness is what that drives us to strive for the best, no? And here is where most make their mistakes of sidelining God and all the sins and what-nots rear their ugly heads.

Enough of digressing.

So what I'm trying to say is erm.....how do I begin, eh? I think let's begin at the start.

When I was young, I had so many BIG dreams. Till today I can still remember vividly how much I wanted to go to Harvard or Oxford. How I had believed that I can or will go there. Of course at that point of time things like financial factors and stuff didn't occur to me cos I was young. I was pretty much of an idealist. I believed I could soar very high. Cos I thought I was special and really smart. Oh just how naive I was back then. Then as I grow, I continue to excel academically but alas, the pride in me more often than not got too confident of my ability that I slipped. Small slips at first, but then they got bigger and bigger. So I figured that kinda contributes to my being here. It's not that I'm not thankful for the fact that I got a place in the public U. But, there's always a but, I wish so much that I had put in my best effort so that at least I'm one step nearer to my dream since I'm not from a rich family (though we're living comfortably now) cos the expectation for my parents to put me through an oversea U is OUT of the question, let alone a local private one.

So this is why I am so frustrated with my life, with myself sometimes cos it's just not fair that there are people who get better exposure, better opportunities and better experiences in life just cos circumstances favour them. I do not have an exceptional ability and neither do I have the cash to pursue my dream. They say hard work will take you places but I say it's all BS cos no matter how big of an effort you put in if circumstances don't favour you then, it will be futile.

I know I have said this many times but I still want to say this again: I dislike it here. Not so much of the people but of the experiences and the quality of education I'm missing out. Yaso and Sew, if you're reading this please do not misunderstand k, cos I love you guys. Really, I couldn't ask for better roommates ;p What I'm trying to say is does it mean that us people who are in the public U cannot achieve as much as those who are in the pretigious schools? Cos whether we like it or not, it is a fact that somehow us public U ones are a step, if not a few, behind those in the Ivy League schools and the likes. If you put one from each to compare, one would be able to immediately differentate one from the other. The way they think, the way they speak, the extent of their knowledge, etc. In short, I want the better of who and what I am right now.

Why is Malaysia so corrupted? Why isn't everyone given the chance they deserve? Why are there shits like quotas and what-nots?

My mom talked to me about getting a Masters after I finish my Degree. She did mention about doing it private locally. However, the little voice in me is saying that unless I'm going overseas, I'm not going to get my Masters....for now. This is because I have wasted not 1 or 2 but 4 (!!!) years studying something which I have no interest in so unless I'm sure I'll be getting the kind of experience I've always pictured, Masters is out of the question. Sorry mom, but I need to follow my heart. Maybe I'll change my mind later on but we'll see. I guess for now I can only work and save up but God knows how long that'll take. Dammit.

I sound pathetic, no need to remind me thank you very much. I really do hope that one day, I'll be able to see myself attending class at a pretigious school and receive the kind of education which everyone deserves, unlike the in the local U which is a joke. I don't even understand how could a Bio student ever get a Physics kind of course. Divine intervention?

Obviously I've still got a long way more to go to loving myself.....and life. Sorry I'm such a selfish bitch.

Lookie what I found!

http://www.state.gov/r/pa/prs/ps/2009/03/120070.htm
(copy paste this onto the address thingy cos I dunno how to link it. haih very sappai I know T____T)

Hmm....and I wonder why our local media didn't publish this. Oh well, we DO know why...but some things are better kept mum. Dun wanna get sued. Wtf.

Anywayyy....I've been really hooked onto SS501's songs lately. Their songs are ssooo good dammit I can't concentrate on my studies T____T

I like this song in particular...Find

na-ege seodo na-ege seodo ganjeolhaejin maminde
eotteokharago eotteokharago haeyo
neomu adeukhan neomu adeukhan sarang inde
jeoldae pogi mothaneun shimjangi geudae ingeo jyo

yeogiseo isseo neoui useum chaja ulkkeoya
nimam apeugehan nunmureun yeogi naega da jaba dultenikka
tumyeonghan ni sarangeul jeoldae ijji mothal gireum mandeuro
bandeushi uri sarangeul dashi chajeultenikka

niga eopshido niga epseodo jal haenael su isseulkka
kkumeul kku-eodo hangsang duri yeottneunde
neoreul dalma-on neoreul dalma-on shigandeureul
jeoldae pogi mothaneun miryeonhan shimjangingeojyo

yeogiseo isseo neoui useum chaja ulkkeoya
nimam apeugehan nunmureun yeogi naega da jaba dultenikka
tumyeonghan ni sarangeul jeoldae ijji mothal gireum mandeuro
bandeushi uri sarangeul dashi chajeultenikka

teongbin sarange gaseum ta-oreuneun seulpeumdo
neoreul maeumeseo mireonaegi-en bujokhan nareul jaranikka
heureuneun geu nunmure nameun gi-eok majeo jamkil ttakkaji
bandeushi naui sarangeun neoreul chajeultenikka

TRANSLATION

From me, from me too
It is changed sincere heart
I say “What should I do? What should I do?”
It is but a extremely faraway, a very faraway love
It is you whom my heart
Definitely can’t give up

I stand here, to find back your laughter
The painful tears from your heart
I am here to catch them all
I make a road that I will definitely not forget, your crystal-clear love
Because we will surely find, our love again

Without you, even without you
Will i be able to live well?
It is always the two of us even in the dream that dream..
Resemblance of you, the times that resembles you
It is the lingering love
That I definitely can’t give up

I stand here, to find back your laughter
The painful tears from your heart
I am here to catch them all
I make a road that I will definitely not forget, your crystal-clear love
Because we will surely find, our love again

The empty love, even with the sadness burning in the chest
I will not be able to push you out from my heart
Because the imperfect me is insignificant
Until the falling tears
Submerge every single memories
For you are my love, I will surely find you

Damn jiwang I know...Haha but I don't care cos I LOVE IT!
Roflmao!

There are other songs which I really like too but am lazy to go search for their lyrics. I'm suppose to study, remember? LOLLL -.-"

Okay, something is obviously wrong with me cos I'm always ss laughing at my own lame jokes which most prolly others don't think is funny =.=||

HAHA BUT IT IIISSSS FUNNY!
=D

You don't think so? *pouts

Okay, this post is sounding a tad stupid.

HAHA wtf!

OMG I AM SSSOOOO BORED I COULD DIE!!!

Like seriously...haven't even started studying for my exams next week O_O

I'm now listening to Extreme's More Than Words and gosh, it really makes me wish I didn't stop my guitar lesson. Sigh. I would have really love plucking my guitar away cos it's just so cool, you know. Wtf haha. One of the boyfriend requirements would be 'must know how to play guitar and serenade me with songs just like in 50 First Dates'. LMAO! Okay, if cannot play guitar at least must know how to play drums. Wtf!

It's study week now....and yet I am so unmotivated to study. Sad =(

I really hate myself whenever I'm like this because I NEVER seem to learn my lesson. First, it was SPM. Then, STPM. And now in uni *bangs head on the wall

BUCK UP, GAL!!!

So anywayyy....I went to Sg Lembing, again. This time with some of my coursemates. Hehe. Champion sia to hike up the hills 2 weeks in a row. But I guess I won't be going there anytime soon. Really wan this time!

Coincidently it was a Sunday so there's a pasar pagi. And guess what I bought?! A pair of 1 inch heels for RM10 and 13 (small) dragon fruits for RM10 also!!! Oh the cheapness is just so awesome! Haha!

I changed my digicam's batt so the photos turned out not too bad. Yay! But I'm lazy to upload them all (300++) so here's ONE to tease you. LOL. The uncle's friend who took this photo for us was so funny. Instead of saying cheese, he asked us to say 'SEX'. Like wtf. Never here people say that before. Haha.


Nice right?! I like this photo a lot cos everyone's so happy and smiley but in actual fact all were tired like shit. Wtf. We were quite intimidated at first cos there were so many people with their ultra pro and expensive DSLRs. Their lenses are like the length of my feet. Bigger also got. Not kidding. And their stands, omg, are like the ones you see in a studio. Quite malu to be snapping away with my 3 years old lau beh Nikon L2 and Ba's Canon A400. But whatever la cos I dunno them and neither do they know me. Hehe.

Later on me and Lih Yin went for their famous noodles and tofu but boy, oh boy....I was so dissapointed cos the delicious stall didn't open. We settled for a random one cos it has the most customers but their curry soup tasted like shit! Expensive sammo! Grr~ Even the one in Gambang tastes so much better. Haih went all the way ed only get to eat yucky curry noodles. Tofu pula no more ed T____T

Anywayyy....lookey here mama! My FIRST time winning the internediate level in Spider Solitaire! Damn jakun, I know, but I never ever manage to complete it ok. Hmph!


Oh yea....I've finally finished the damn Analogs report. Cis I really really hate it kau kau. The stupid lecturer also! And not forgetting Cik Hipokrit! Grr~

First of all, the problem (question) does not and can never exist cos the fucking plagiarizer of an asshole had simply copy paste some oversea uni's lab sheet and then just change the JFET to N-MOSFET. I'm talking bout transistors fyi. Non-electrical people might think this is a small matter but NO, it makes a huge ass of a difference.

We had to find all the values of the resistor and what nots of the voltage divider bias circuit and because the keh-gau lecturer changed the transistor, we couldn't. For the whole night right after my Machines test my friends and I stayed up just to do it but in the end we couldn't finish it cos the whole lab shit is total BS! It's just impossible. Even the geniuses in my section can't do it. So in the end we decided to just ask our lecturer (not the lecturer mentioned earlier) postpone the dateline.

And then when we went for the transformer talk the next morning only did Cik Hipokrit say, 'Eh, korang tak tau ke boleh hantar hari Isnin'. Walau eh, I really felt like giving her a good kick in the ass cos she and her friends did not have the decency to let us know at all. No wonder they can afford to relax while the rest of us were slogging away. Blardy hell! So anyway, back to the report, we just do whatever we can following the stupid lecturer's answer scheme (I know....like major WTF right) using many assumptions (which is stupid). Our simulation didn't even work. LOL.

This is Malaysian Public Uni for you. Where most, if not all, of the lecturers' 'work' are simply an art of plagiarism. -.- This is not the first time happening so it's kinda frustrating to know that these kind of people who know nuts are being paid with the taxpayers' money to educate our future leaders. Pathetic betul. That's why Malaysia can never progress. Sigh.

Btw....I've just watched He's Just Not That Into You and 50 First Dates! They're so funny and sweet (especially the latter). Haih it's movies like these which cause my (and many other girls') unreasonably high expectations towards my future other half. I really love the part where Henry (Adam Sandler) serenade Lucy (Drew Barrymore) with his composition. *melts* And how he's so determined on making her falling in love with her everyday. *turns into vapor* Finally figured that Alex in HJNTIY is Justin Long even though I've never heard of him but omg he's so cute! Haha. Like in the end how he became like Gigi cos he fell in love with her after she gave him a wake up call. Walau eh~~~

I'm a sucker for romance. Hehe.

Okay this has been one long post and I think I really gotta start studying ed. Wish me luck!

It's been a while since we last talked. And, honestly, I can't really be bothered if you don't bother to call anymore. Cos I'm tired. Tired of playing the catch-the-mouse game. Figuratively speaking of course.

Why do you always go mia? Why do you never pick up my calls? Why do you never reply my messages?

Don't you care about me? Have you forgotten about me?

I'm crying as I'm typing this cos no matter how hard I try to deny that it doesn't matter and that I can't be arsed but the truth is, I still care deep down. It hurts so bad, you know.

Yes, you always say that you have problems and all, and I understand that you need some time off...but don't you think that it's taken up too long?

So you finally called yesterday. Since....last year? I really couldn't remember you ever call or message me this year. And all you had to say is 'What's your shoe size?'. Not even a 'How are you?'.

You are always buying me stuffs. Showering me with gifts and money. Pampering me. BUT DON'T YOU KNOW THAT THAT IS NOT WHAT I WANT/NEED?

I could and would rather forego all those material things if I could have you back.

Sometimes I wonder how are we gonna be like 10 years down the road. Will we be close like mom and lau hor ee? Or perhaps as distant as she and Ah Ngor ee?

I don't know.....I really don't.

I've always hoped that us siblings will be close-knit no matter where we are or who we've become but now they all seem to be wistful thinking.

We may have done better in life and is living comfortably, but, are they worth foregoing your family?

I just want to let you know that it's not cool to always leave me (and mom and sis) hanging like that. Cos family is love. Show some love, yeah?

sg lembing photos =D

Awesome, isn't it?

No matter how good a friend is, he/she is still human after all. And none's perfect.

Do I just let it go and shrug it off...or should I lau kai for a while, just to show that what he/she did is not okay....and that I am no pushover?

Sigh.

omg I LOVE Sg Lembing!

I love the whole oldskool atmosphere of the place, how when you're there it's like taking a step back into the past. It is almost untouched and the scenery especially from the top of the hill is just breathtaking. Totally refreshing for a change.

But the hike up, OMG, is so freaking tiring. We (or at least I) were initially scared cos the path was pitch black and I had expected it to be lit. But no, it was so dark that even with our 2 torchlights we still can't see our way properly. What to do? Of course la use hp's lamp. Now I love my hp even more cos it prevented me from tripping on the uneven steps *strokes hp lovingly

So we started our journey (at 4.55am wtf) and hike, and hike,

'are we there yet?'
'no'

and hike,

'are we there yet?'
'almost'

and continued hiking,

'where is the pondok?'
'reaching'

and still hiking...

Walau eh at that time my legs are almost like jelly and my heart beating so hard against my ribs till it resonates to my head. Still...we weren't there yet. At the last quarter of the journey I was so near to giving up and even asked Sew if she's really sure that the last pondok is really there. Haha.

At last we reached a kind of clearing and decided that we should walk no further cos the path seems to be going downhill and at that time (5.30am) it's still pitch black. I was really scared throughout the whole thing because in such darkness one can never perceive what could happen. I kept on imagining predators jumping out of the bush, some baddies wanna hurt us and seeing ghost. Stupid I know, but I can't help it at that time. All I could do was to keep on flashing the torchlight around now and then.

So we all sat down and just pass time until others are there before deciding our next step. Boy am I glad we reached early (earliest) cos the sky is blanketed with stars. Never have I seen sssoooo many stars together at once before. Not exaggerating ok.

Then a group of people came....and another....and another....and yet another. I was very proud of us (roomies and I) cos we were the smallest in number and yet we had the guts to brave through the darkness to hike up *beams with pride. Sammo it's us girls only le. No guys to protect us. LOL.

The view, like I said earlier, is simply awesome. On one side we cannot see the town below cos there was a thick layer of mist making us feel as though we were very very high up but actually we were probably as high as Maxwell Hill's second pondok. On the other side pula is where the sun is suppose to rise. The greens are so vast that as though there're no roads or whatsoever but only trees and more trees down there.

In the end we didn't really get to see the sun as how we expected cos it was rather cloudy where the sun is suppose to rise. No orange coloured yoke but just shades of it. Sigh. But it's still beautiful nevertheless =)

Damn pek chek earlier on just before we started hiking. My camera's battery decided to die on me just as I was going to start taking pictures. Walau eh! Annoying tahap melampau sia! My fault also la actually cos I forgot to check the battery's life and didn't bring extras *emo. So all of our pics were taken using hp cameras =.= Not the best quality but I think Sew's 5MP one is quite decent.

Stayed till 8 something then we were too hungry to wait for the sun to rise any higher. The hike down, OMG again, was horrible. Just 5 minutes into the hike down my legs starts to shake ed. Quite scary cos I was worried that I won't be able to last all the way down but anyway in the end we all reached flat land without any incident. Yay!

However, it won't be anytime soon before I go there again. It's definitely not for the faint hearted and one should be decently fit before trying to take on the hill. It was a good experience nevertheless =D

Then, breakfast!!! So many people and the aunties are even stressed. Haha! Had their curry noodles and tofu. Yum! My noodles with 5 yong tau foo is only RM 2.80. So cheap! The tofu is 60 cents each. Cheap again! I'm a sucker for cheap stuffs. Hehe.
But I couldn't finish my noodles cos I was somehow not hungry even after the grueling hike. Heh.

After that Fun left with Tai Lou cos he and another 2 came for breakfast while the three of us went exploring. It's quite an interesting town, really, with their jambatan gantung where the folks actually ride their bikes on it even thought it's really long and shaky. The museum pula, was just okay since I'm no big fan of history.

Went back after that and all of us totally knocked out.

omg i LOVE sg lembing! like really, really. oh wait. i think