hop in and enjoy the ride

My second year's ending in a week's time. And I feel like I have not learned much that will actually help me in advancing my career/study. This is where the Malaysian education fails. Or perhaps it'll be more apt to say that I failed (-.-") since I have not shown much interest and rather the lack of capability to be honest. Bah!

I was really annoyed at pretty lotsa people these few days. Should be the imbalance hormone's working cos my period's overdue. And also the stress of not being well prepared for my exams. Two papers down and two more to go. Yay! I'm already lining up my plans for this coming long break but this time I try to stay put at home as long as possible. I wanna spend as much time with Ginny as possible cos old age is catching up with her. Just the other day I saw on PostSecret a picture of a dog with the caption: 'I hope that I can come home from college in time to give you the life you deserved. I'm afraid of losing you to old age.' I can so relate to that post but dang I forgot to save it >.< Really cannot bear the thought of going home to a house without my Ginny ;(

I look crap I know so stop bitching already. Haha.

And I miss Ah Ma too ;(

Blur looking Ah Kong and cute Ah Ma <3

I used to go over to her place every weekend. How funny it is when I was younger I hated her cooking but as I grow older I just can't get enough of them! She whips up the most delicious chinese dishes. Simple but a luxury to the tastebuds indeed. I love those Saturday afternoons where she would accompany me watch my favourite cooking shows on Discovery Travel & Living channel, and then it's Ballroom Bootcamp at 4. She doesn't understand English much but still she's always fascinated with those ang moh langs and their fancy, quirky ways. She loves their 'kin siu' (animals in Hokkien) as well on Animal Planet. Hehe. But now that I'm away from home, even when I do go home, I rarely go visit her cos there's always so many things to do yet so little time. Excuses, excuses. I'm cucu derhaka ;((

Okay I think I've digressed too much on what this whole post is suppose to be about. Typical me. Anywayyy I do not know if I should be angry/happy/relieved/annoyed when I sat for my Electrical Machine & Power System paper today. Cos bladdy hell almost all the questions are exactly like the ones we had in our tests. Even if they're not 100% alike it's so similar you just can't not know how to do. Like this why even make us sit for the exam? So stupid right? When my friend told me that the other section's lecturer ask to look back all the test papers I wasn't expecting anything like this at all! Shit! And the worst thing is that I still do not know how to do some of them ;((( *slaps self* It was practically a free A and yet....sigh.

And then about Numerical Methods & Statistics! Walau eh, now this one I'm really pissed. Cos some of the questions are exactly like the ones in the other section's lecturer's notes! It's so unfair....shouldn't it be like all for one and one for all?

Can someone please tell me why am I still here? Now I feel like I AM wasting precious time. I dream of being in a place where my senses are always being teased, to be driven. Somewhere where injustice is condemned kau kau. And everyone is given what they deserve, what they've earned. I am still waiting for that day to come.