hop in and enjoy the ride

Gosh I really can't help but wish that I'm in Forks(as in the town in Twilight for you Twilight-virgin)

Actually I think I'm kinda halfway there already since it has been raining like forever here ;p

But where's my Edward??!! Haha in my dreams only I suppose -.-

And speaking of that, I'm kinda (okay, maybe more like really) wondering when it's going to be my turn to be Bella? I see people around me getting hitched like you're snapping your fingers but me..? Is it me or perhaps it is just fated or whatsoever? I seem to be repelling all those 'good' ones. Lol.

Both my sisters are getting married soon. And to be perfectly honest, I'm scared. I know, I know...one might think wtf am I scared of? I myself don't really know. Maybe I'm scared that they will change and that somehow we won't be close anymore...? But really...it's not as though we are now >.<

Whatever.

Amidst all these questions , dilemmas blablabla....I'm truly happy that they've found their other halves. After years of having to avoid the question on where and who they're living with in sg, I gotta say it's all black and white now. As in like it's not (exactly) wrong for them to live together anymore cos they're getting married now. Make sense?

Looking back actually I realised that I don't quite know my sisters. Scary huh? Maybe it's because I practically grew up without them. And even when they're around I don't seem to have much recollection of things we do together, etc. And I cannot deny that I'm quite sad by this cos I sometimes feel like I do not belong in the family O.O

I know, I know...kinda shocking right? I guess many if not all do not see this coming.

Yes, they (and parents too in this case) always shower me with gifts and all but..but....but as much as I like being pampered like that.....I can't help but do not FEEL the connection there. You know like how whether you're on the wavelength or you're not. And in this case, I dont think I am. Sigh...What the hell is wrong with me?

Am I just a selfish whore?

Gee I sound like an emo wreck.